Letting go is something that I want to be better
If you haven’t noticed, I talk about two topics frequently: friends and relationships (more like being ghosted). I think before I took on the label of a post-grad, I didn’t know how different these things would be for me. My world seemingly seems like a static television screen compared to the one I used to live out on social media. Jet-setting and living almost my dream. So I yearn for those things that I don’t have anymore, and that’s tough.
I recently came across a photo of an old friend who is getting married. I don’t talk to this friend anymore but I have friends that do. Although, I’ve let go of that friendship, I found myself feeling very sad. It’s like I want to hold on to them without holding on to them; weird concept, I know. But I realized something as I saw people I recognize in that photo.
I think the more I became entrenched with the social media life, the more I defined friends ticking those boxes.
Learning to let go is most likely less about me and more
I think the more I became entrenched with the social media life, the more I defined friends ticking those boxes. Friends used to text me all the time. They used to take pictures with me and tag me so everyone knew that we had a good time at that one brunch or that one Halloween party or that one Greek Week event.
I need to learn to let go of the past and look towards the future. And I need to learn to let go and see people for who they are, not what I want them to be.
So learning to let go means that for me, I need to let go of the animosity I have for people. It means I need to let go of the heartache I feel whenever I see a friend in town that doesn’t visit me. I think it’s easy for me to blame myself and say, “maybe I’m the problem”. But I don’t think I do myself any justice in saying just that.
I need to learn to let go of the past and look towards the future. And I need to learn to let go and see people for who they are, not what I want them to be. I need to learn to let go of people and start over, even though that terrifies me. So, this year is the year of learning to let go. What will it be for you?